"All that is not the love of God has no meaning for me. I can truly say that I have no interest in anything but the love of God which is in Christ Jesus. If God wants it to, my life will be useful through my word and witness. If he wants it to, my life will bear fruit through my prayers and sacrifices. But the usefulness of my life is his concern, not mine. It would be indecent of me to worry about that."
The last journal entry of Father Dominic Voillaume, taken from
"The Signature of Jesus"By Brennan Manning
Dominic Voillaume was a French priest who spent his life in the service of the poor. He died of cancer at a very young age. From what I've read of him, he had a magnificent grasp on the real force of sin in our lives and of the fact that, despite our best efforts, we are capable of nothing good on our own. His quote so eloquently explains that truth. I have been so guilty of trying to craft something great for God and missing the mark totally. God didn't save me because I had anything great to offer. He saved me because he loves me and whatever else He accomplishes with my life after that is completely up to Him. The only potential I have in myself is the potential to mess everything up. Surrendered to His will, however, great things can be accomplished. But that is strictly His doing! whenever I try to inject my will into it...regardless of how noble my intentions...I just end up wrecking it. Abraham learned this lesson with Ishmael.
So all any of us can do is wake up each morning, offer the day to God to do as He pleases, and enjoy the ride. In the end, it takes all the pressure off of us and we avoid what Fr.Dominic called the "indecency" of trying to do it ourselves.